Identified Phases of Apeirophobia

Circle of solomon

From zero to Oblivion, as if it was here before it had a chance to happen.

All I have encountered to date, have had their first experience manifest itself abruptly.

What normally is actualized is a concept challenge of consciousness and an interpretation of no linear end.

Our consciousness normally operated within a fixed measurable but limited reality. However, when fixed, measurable, and limited are removed from the frame in which our consciousness normally operates. Rapid adjustments to our core values of our own place, worth and purpose result in panic, fear, and despair.

To some this can actual be as if eternity is a flow or a stream, like a physical energy (such as myself). To others it is more ethereal as a concept, or a cage of no escape.

The common denominator in all cases so far is a resonance. Which appears a broad term, since that appears to be what most things that exist do.

Then comes the creative ways people attempt to circumvent or co-exist with what some see as an  unimaginable terror. This really cannot be classified as a phobia, for it is more a concept challenge. Unless one thinks they can escape existence.

Many will delve into religion, atheism, drugs, philosophy,  simply try to ignore it, or even contemplate suicide. Inevitably there are only two primary options. Those being to either  immerse yourself in it, or de-evolve the way you think ( i.e.  hit the delete button ) .

I myself have crossed the proverbial River Styx without having to pay with my memories. I regret I cannot tell you tell some two bit popcorn philosophy line with butterflies and sunsets as a back drop. I can tell you though, it can be done.

When you do, nothing really special is going to happen except one simple thing. Your inner strength not having to rely on the illusion of unstable structures built by fearful civilizations, will begin to take hold. You will build on your reality. Who you are, will be an unfolding of your true nature and no one else’s.

As for me, I am no one special nor do I have to be. I know I am my own ancestor as well as my own progeny. For me personally my challenge is to always build upon this line. My memories a sliding scale that fades, limiting my immediate experience and anticipations of things to come. However my actions, no matter how faint in the distance, are a standing record to my eternal nature.

_Ralph Turchiano Updated 22 Jan 2014 –

8 thoughts on “Identified Phases of Apeirophobia

  1. I do not believe that a moral philosophy can ever be founded on a scientific basis. … The valuation of life and all its nobler expressions can only come out of the soul’s yearning toward its own destiny. Every attempt to reduce ethics to scientific formulas must fail. Of that I am perfectly convinced. — Albert Einstein
    Time has no effect, pressure on the eternal soul, no beginning nor end, just peace.
    We are conscious beings that have devolved in material duality realm, and the human form has been regressing for ages, and completely sabotaged by rulers eager to enslave us and control our reality; a Matrix well oiled.

    • I can never help but imagine Albert using that line on one of his wives while trying to explain, uh hum a social dalliance or two, or 3 , 4, etc. as the dishes go flying. I really like the parts of him in which society has filtered for us to see, though. If you get a chance, I would love to know what you think of another friend, Georg Cantor. He really opened up a recent door into the interpretation of accepting the open set of existence. I have to give some credit also to Aaron, who unfortunately seems to be permanently regulated down to the guy known as Mosses brother. Yet he was the real start amongst that duo.

      What is said after is really prophetic ” sabotaged by rulers eager to enslave us and control our reality; a Matrix well oiled” . You see it ;-). Even though it always sounds overly melodramatic. In reality they (whomever they are) only rule those who voluntarily abdicate. Yet Rule, and Oppression can be viewed as two separate terms.

      I am observing, these humans pretty much do it to themselves through gluttony, sloth, and a few other fun terms. These “Rulers” have a wonderful way of exploiting weakness as they do not force people to consume donuts, candy, and sit on the couch all day diluting their lives by living vicariously through chosen celebrities. If this is the path they choose, whom am I to tell them how to exist?

      Yet, then there comes souls like yourself, an outlier currently in a diluted reality. With what do you resonate ? How do you like to define your purpose ? Knowing Eternity do you desire to see existence diluted over the whole, and retreat at the sight of a horizon ? Or do you chose to burn brightly in the moment, not so much for others, but for yourself and out of rebellion against the blind who so violently demand you see as they do?

      Just Curious…. Of course I light to Burn brightly myself,,, But then again that’s just how I resonate 😉

  2. I also have an inbuilt fear of eternity. My Mum believed in the afterlife, seeing no point in this life if there was nothing to follow. I suffer from OCD, mainly because of this fear. This fear has been in me for 35 years, created mainly by my failure to perform these compulsive, obsessive tasks in the way I believe I should have done, 35 years ago. The fear is that these compulsions will continue into the afterlife as well as the regrets for not having done these actions properly in this life. It is in me all the time although I have learnt to deal with it over the years. I have to force myself to believe that there is no afterlife. With OCD no less than perfection can be accepted. This fear has certainly been a dominant feature of my life and I have suffered because of it. I have been on anti-depressants for 17 years. It’s hard to say whether this has been caused by my fear of eternity or not, but it would have put me in a weaker position to cope with life’s day to day problems. I have continuously been unable to solve this problem, or to forgive myself for not doing these compulsive actions properly to my satisfaction. This probably sounds quite mad to you, but is very real to me. I would love to hear anything that could help me find some peace.

    • I do not have time to give an adequate response today; I shall though shortly. I just wanted to let you know as soon as I could, that you no longer have to feel you are alone in the way you feel as well as alone in your experiences. For the moment, even if it is some small consolation, you are in good company. 😉

  3. Ralph – I have enjoyed the brief conversations we had through this web site about a month ago. I am going to be living in LA for several weeks beginning early October and was interested in meeting you and discussing this topic. A very strange thing seems to have occurred for me. (Or maybe not that strange) I was in a bicycle accident and experienced a severe concussion. I do not have any noticeable amnesia however I can no longer seem to put myself in that place where eternity causes anxiety. No matter how hard I try I can no longer get freaked out by the idea. Only peace. This may of course be temporary but interesting for the moment nonetheless. I am interested in evolving, regardless of whether this current mental state persists and would like to witness your presence as your knowledge on this subject has been so illuminating. Let me know if a meetup would be possible by contacting me via email. Thanks! Chris

    • That would be it…. 😉 Outside of that people tend to see evolving as a means to either greater personal, social, or internal power. We may also see evolving as the ability to adapt to either psychic, social, or environmental conditions. Most all see lack of content of where they are at, being easily controlled by that lack of content through either spiritual of material wants. A society (or person) without want, or needs is a society that cannot be controlled.

      The Eternal fear ( so to say ) is Generally a fear of lack of purpose/meaning. (i.e. what is the meaning of life ) . It is what drives people to submit to powers they deem wiser and broader then themselves (whether that be Gangs, or Gods). All these words are simple to say. It is only those who have actually peered into that eternal flow (abyss) that can understand it. Otherwise it is like explaining an elephant to a blind man.

      There is still what I call and feel are energy streams, just as all emotions are a resonance of certain energy. It is often hidden in circumlocutions, such as the River Styx being an Soliloquy in Greek drama. It does not mean I do not want to strive to know more and understand how they all connect. It does mean though, I am at peace if I never do understand all that there is…

      Plus its Fun 😉 Nothing really that good on T.V.

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