What would be the reason our reflex to an awakened awareness of eternity would be a negative emotion? Why should there be any emotion associate with it at all?
Why would our biology trigger such a reaction, independent of our desire to experience something new?
This is not a survival instinct, such as run from fire or surface for air when under water. The feeling we get from eternity is so strong, in most of us it causes us to retreat.
We must think outside ourselves, and speculate that we may just be a cog in an eternal machine. That despair associated with eternity, is a form of behavior modification built into our being.
Kind of like someone choosing our societal icons for us in order to mold our psyche. Whether Freud being a drug addict or Plato and Socrates being overzealous pedophiles. We learn what someone else thought was important.
We are taught there is a beginning and there is an end. There is creation and there is inevitable destruction. Life is dark filled with brief glimpses of joy. The Darkness giving contrast to brief moments of Joy. Everything a limited resource, including time.
By teaching us that everything is a limited resource, we learn to fear loss. Everything can be lost, and therefore becomes a struggle to control.
If I gave you $20 for a weeks worth of food. You would learn to ration, and horde or you will suffer. You would learn to worship the one who pays you, or gives you life.
On the other hand, if you had a Million dollars a week for food, and or immortality. Your fears of limited resources become extinct. The ability to control you null and void. You now may even become a danger to the one who seeks to be in charge.
Rationale of Cards 1 through 10 Over the years , I personally became stuck in what may be called a logic loop. Existence and Time became an obsession in regard to which came first. Often leading to the question why anything exists at all. I kept questioning each hypothesis that was postulated over and over again. I became often engulfed by the indescribable despair and the total loss of purpose that often accompanies this initial phobia of eternity. I then began to realize that this pain, was not a defect but an adaptation. In order to survive, I literally had to change everything I thought existence was. These first 10 cards are just the beginning on how I personally reprogrammed my views in order to adapt. Humbly, Ralph Edward Turchiano
Rationale of Cards 21-30 Existence, infinity, reality, and dimension are a series of sets. These Sets are based upon the perception of what can be defined as identity. Identity itself is a series of sets, as it may be rare that any identity is purely homogeneous with itself. What is one, can be infinitely divided amongst itself. Where nothing is created, but simply divided. Later what may appear as being created, is simply a union of what originally was. Any Reality in itself within this context can have infinite possibilities as any division within itself, is never limited by itself, but by only what is perceived Proof most commonly applies to what can be repeated and is limited to the truth of what may not be repeated. Do not confuse Proof with Truth.