I am finding it necessary at this juncture to explain how my perception of existence and time are two separate elements.
An understanding of the following concept was vital to clearing the hurdle of discomfort in regards to eternity.
It was not till many years later did I realize it was the concept of existence and not time that was the culprit.
Yes, I found a way to co-exist with time as a quasi linear eternal event. Yet eternity, really was not the root of the issue.
It was the birth of a relatively intangible thought, as the following shall reveal.
Existence is undefinable, and absent of limits and laws. It is also unimaginable, as we only attempt to understand it through our biases and perception. Our vision corrupts it through our experience and knowledge.
It is nothing yet everything.
It is forever and yet the beginning
It is a single point yet limitless
All times begin and diminish within existence
All times and events are eternal within existence.
From existence the dimensions arise. The first most likely being perception than time. Without the perception from matter and energy, time is not relevant.
Perception need not be consciousness
From Existence is birthed perception, time, dimensions, etc…..
I will stop there.
I have discovered for myself, that eternal existence is an indirect misnomer. Eternity and Existence must be distinguished as two separate entities. I know this is not easy, as it is counter to the way we have been trained to think epigenetically over the eons.
We are trained to fixate on beginnings and endings. Many of us began to despair just over the feeling of no end or purpose. Never mind the concept of there never being a beginning or plan.
I do not purport to claim I understand existence. I have though, have begun my journey of understanding that time and existence are two totally separate entities all together.
I find it Ironic that for any of us to truly perceive existence, with all the hell we had to experience to get there. May end up being one of the most pure and empowering of experiences that all realities have to offer. Since it may be perception of existence that gives birth to all potential realities. ( in Romantic terms True Magic )
Rationale of Cards 1 through 10 Over the years , I personally became stuck in what may be called a logic loop. Existence and Time became an obsession in regard to which came first. Often leading to the question why anything exists at all. I kept questioning each hypothesis that was postulated over and over again. I became often engulfed by the indescribable despair and the total loss of purpose that often accompanies this initial phobia of eternity. I then began to realize that this pain, was not a defect but an adaptation. In order to survive, I literally had to change everything I thought existence was. These first 10 cards are just the beginning on how I personally reprogrammed my views in order to adapt. Humbly, Ralph Edward Turchiano
Rationale of Cards 21-30 Existence, infinity, reality, and dimension are a series of sets. These Sets are based upon the perception of what can be defined as identity. Identity itself is a series of sets, as it may be rare that any identity is purely homogeneous with itself. What is one, can be infinitely divided amongst itself. Where nothing is created, but simply divided. Later what may appear as being created, is simply a union of what originally was. Any Reality in itself within this context can have infinite possibilities as any division within itself, is never limited by itself, but by only what is perceived Proof most commonly applies to what can be repeated and is limited to the truth of what may not be repeated. Do not confuse Proof with Truth.